Sunday, March 30, 2008

Laura Leigh Kirkland

As most, or all, of you know; my cousin died tragically in an automobile accident the night of March 24th. She had just turned 25 the week before and seemed to be in the prime of her life. Being so far away from Georgia when I initially heard the news, I was shocked. I barely shed a tear. I immediately made arrangements to return to my home town to attend the services. I arrived in town just in time to go to the funeral home to attend the viewing or wake. That is when the mourning truly began. I was overwhelmed when I saw her sister-in-law, a friend and now cousin to me. I hugged her and wept, feeling almost ashamed of my sorrow. I was not a sister or a mother to her. I just loved her. It was all and still seems so unreal to me. A beautiful young girl, I always took for granted would just always be around, is no longer. I kept thinking, if I had just known, I would have called. If only... But, that's just not how it works. We never know when something so sudden or tragic will occur and a person we have dearly loved will be taken. Her mother told me, "take care of those babies." So, I'm gonna love my babies, and I'm gonna love my Ryan, and I'm gonna do my best to live this life as if every day is my last. And just be a better me. We are sent to this earth to prepare to meet our God. But, something I often forget is that there is Joy to be had. This life doesn't have to be a drudgery, there will be times of sadness; trial; and tribulation. But there will also be times of happiness, laughter, peace, learning, inspiration, and more. So, I don't know what I am exactly trying to say. I just know our family brings us the greatest joy. My Ryan is an amazing man who makes me laugh and smile and teaches me all the time. My Gracie is a beautiful girl who brings me incomprehensible amounts of joy. And no matter what happens in this life, they are mine forever.

11 comments:

Kimber said...

Thank you for sharing your thoughts, what a time for contemplation.

Elizabeth said...

It's so true. Thanks for sharing. Something I needed to hear.

echoeve said...

I am so glad that you were able to make it in for the funeral.
I wish we could see you for happier times.


thanks,

Leah said...

It is so true and you will always have me whether you like or not. I love you.

Chad and Nicole said...

Thank you for sharing your insight. It helps give me perspective on what is really important.

gigi said...

You are right, no matter what happens, Families are forever! You'll always have your little family and maybe one day it won't be little it will be large! I know that was hateful, sorry about wishing 10 children on you. So glad that you were able to get here and be with the family at this very sad time. Love always.

Tara said...

I'm so glad we both made it back home...I've been wanting to see you for a long time. Gracie is even more adorable in person...what a great little girl you have. I echo your feelings...I'm going to enjoy my precious ones even more.

Melissa said...

That is beautiful Rachael! Thank you for reminding us all what is important!

Harmony said...

You never know when or how. I have always felt that I live my life as if there is no tomorrow. But I guess I just thought it and not really acted on it. It is really an opener when someone so young with a bright future dies so suddenly. Thanks for the encouragment to live my life to the fullest!
Harmony (Echo's sister)

christon said...

it was so good to see u, we need to keep in touch. what sweet things u said...i think i am still in shock about it all. this has all surely brought too light the important things in life not to be taken for granted

Amanda said...

I have just read this. Sorry to be so late. I love ya, kiddo.